Last week I was preparing for a trip away and went to water my plants. I touched the dirt in one of the pots and found it as dry as a bone.
The notion of being dry as a bone stayed with me over the next 6 days, as I travelled long distances with my children, to support my eldest son through a four day football competition. The problem was that I was unable to pack my bible as we had weight restrictions on the flight we were travelling. I knew I had my bible on my mobile phone, so I wasn’t too worried, even though I hate reading from the device when it comes to my time with God.
The problem was that it wasn’t just that I missed my bible. I was tired and bone weary…inside. I have been feeling it for a few weeks. Bone dry, bone weary and dry as a bone spiritually and emotionally. Needing some nourishment and time out from under the heat and the weather that dries me out emotionally and spiritually.
This morning I sat down for my morning time with God and I could not pull anything from His word. I sat and read one Psalm and nothing was sinking in or registering.
The last time I felt this way was when I had little ones. When my boys were babies, they were very unwell. I reached a point of exhaustion that was beyond tired. Spiritually, back then, I had not enough faith, and my relationship with God was almost non-existent during this period of my life. While then I floundered and eventually came to a stop spiritually, this time was different.
Now, I have a relationship with God that gets through these times. I have a strong sense of His presence even when I am this weary. I talk to Him and wait for Him to speak. I have the faith that even when I don’t feel His presence or hear Him speak, I know He is there.
While writing my book a few years ago, God gave me a word of encouragement for mums. Especially for mothers that have small children. This was it –
I see the busyness of a mother’s heart, of her very life. Little ones keep her busy, often unable to rest or sleep.
There come moments of blessing, if her heart and mind turn to Me. The tiredness that she feels chokes Me out of her heart. At those times reach up – I am there, by faith, and I will let her know.
Remind them that this is momentary. Remind them that there is a day when the demands are not so high.
There are times when I am very busy, or very weary. I still go back to this word of encouragement and the 6 steps that God gave me to write in that chapter. Steps like – Take moments of time with God.
It is not just mums with little ones that become overwhelmed by weariness. While God originally gave me this chapter for mum’s, I personally need to keep reading this chapter to reminding myself that God sees and understands. This last week I have needed to back off my study time and not take my times in His word so intensely. Sometimes in dry times it is not pushing we need.
We need to remember that ultimately it is the Holy Spirit that does the work in us, it is He that brings us though dry times and through valleys. When we are tired and dry, we just need to rest in Him.
God often allows me to go through an experience to reveal what He is going to show me next. I need not worry about these times, just trust and stay close to Him – read His work, pray, listen, and have faith. Why do I know that this is one of those times?
A few months ago, I was listening to Vision Radio (Christian Radio Station) and a song came on that caught my attention. The singer was Lauren Daigle, and the song was called “Come Alive (Dry Bones)”.
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Through the eyes of men it seems there’s so much we have lost
As we look down the road where all the prodigals have walked
One by one the enemy has whispered lies
And led them off as slaves
But we know that you are God yours is the victory
We know there is more to come
That we may not yet see
So with the faith you’ve given us
We’ll step into the valley unafraid, yeah
As we call out to dry bones come alive, come alive
We call out to dead hearts come alive, come alive
Up out of the ashes let us see an army rise
We call out to dry bones, come alive
God of endless mercy god of unrelenting love
Rescue every daughter bring us back the wayward son
And by your spirit breathe upon them show the world that you alone can save
You alone can save
As we call out to dry bones come alive, come alive
We call out to dead hearts come alive, come alive
Up out of the ashes let us see an army rise
We call out to dry bones come alive
So breathe, oh breath of God
Now breathe, oh breath of God
Breathe, oh breath of God now breathe
Breathe, oh breath of God
Now breathe, oh breath of God
Breathe, oh breath of God, now breathe
As we call out to dry bones come alive, come alive
We call out to dead hearts come alive, come alive
Up out of the ashes let us see an army rise
We call out to dry bones, come alive
We call out to dry bones, come alive
Oh come alive
(Written by Lauren Daigle, Michael Farren • Copyright © Warner/Chappell Music, Inc)
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Ever since, I have listened to this song dozens of times. My prayer is this – “What are you doing Father God in the lives of your daughters (including me), and what do you want me to do?”
I really believe strongly that what I have been going through the past few weeks, is what a lot of women (and men) are going through daily. They are dry, weathered, and dead inside. God is wanting to breath on them and give them a life beyond what they are now.
While they drift like in a haze, God is wanting to reveal newness and clarity. While they feel cold, God is wanting to renew the flame for Him and His word. While they wonder where God is, He is right where they left Him.
There is nothing that can separate you from the love of God. Nothing. His love for you has not changed. Life has changed for you, desire has changed for you, but God has not. Your focus need to refocus and your heart needs to take small steps back to a place of life.
Even while I write these words the dryness is lifting off me, because these are the words God wants me to speak.
God sees dryness and weariness, He is the answer to this. Simple. He was, He is and He always will be the answer to every struggle and every person’s deepest need for their Creator and Saviour. Go to Him and acknowledge that He is the answer. It is not about fighting, struggling, striving and pushing. It is about returning, repenting, absorbing His word and asking Him to bring life to those dry bones. It is not about human effort and achievement, it is all about God.
Ezekiel 37:4-5 and 14
Then he said to me, “Prophesy to these bones and say to them, ‘Dry bones, hear the word of the Lord! This is what the Sovereign Lord says to these bones: I will make breath enter you, and you will come to life.
I will put my Spirit in you and you will live, and I will settle you in your own land. Then you will know that I the Lord have spoken, and I have done it, declares the Lord.’”
My prayer for you right now is this –
“Breathe, Oh breath of God now breathe. As we call out to dry bones come alive, we call out to dead hearts come alive, up out of the ashes let us see an army rise. We call out to dry bones, come alive ….”
Be blessed